RESILIENCE

During my last trip to my beloved Alentejo, I found this resilient daisy (no... is not a sunflower!!) . The day was windy and showers, came and go, leaving her wet and the petals twisted sometimes by the impact of the rain drops.... But as soon as the sun appeared briefly and the wind dryed her up a bit, there she was shining and bright, as if nothing could affect her!! ...And yet she was standing alone, not in a field of their alike, to give her stamina, but lonely outside a fence on the muddy road! And I couldn't resist to have her company, to bring her with me! And decided to share it with who ever may pass my blog! Isn't she pretty? And brave?

IS IT SUMMER'S FAULT??

Long hot, sleepless night! A friend of mine called in tears. Her boy friend has done it again!!! An ugly fight, for some trivial reason ,and bag in one hand goes out of the door, saying I am going on vacations by myself. Need some time away from you! She says that by this time of the year there is always something in the air announcing a storm forming around... They say the pillow is a good adviser, but no sleep, so no pillow... And thinking far back in my relationship I find out that the same happens here! Less dramatic (age counts even in matters of the heart!) but nevertheless as summer approaches and some details on day to day basis change... More stress ,more unrest more bad temper! What happens to men in summer??? And I remember that at my work colleagues use to have same complaint... I am trying to understand (I have a vague idea!) how problem appears... WHAT SUMMER GOT TO DO IT???

AND LIFE GOES ON

THAT'S TRUE... MY MOTHER USED TO SAY IN THE GOOD OLD PORTUGUESE WAY "NÃO HÁ MAL QUE SEMPRE DURE" MEANING NO HARDSHIPS CAN LAST FOREVER... AND SADDLY AS IT MAY SEEM , IT IS TRUE!! ONE OF THIS DAYS SEATTING AT A RESTAURANT BY THE SEASIDE SURROUNDED BY BOATS AND THIS BEUATIFUL SKY, BREATHING THE FRESH BREEZE AND ENJOYING THE PLEASURE OF A MARVELOUS GRILLED (TRULY FRESH) FISH AND IT LOOKED LIKE IF NO TROUBLES OR PROBLEMS COULD EVER UPSET MY PEACE OF MIND.... AND IT WAS A GREAT FEELING...SELFISH MAY BE BUT GREAT .....AS LIFE GOES BY...

WE ARE ALL GYPSIES

Sometimes I wonder how do gypsies live (and on what)...I had the opportunity of capture one of their camps, from faraway (they didn't allow me closer!) and my camera's lens was too short... At the moment, was just the fascination of the freedom I saw, children, horses, tents, adults and a wide land (nobodies land?)... Not even a good document of their lifestyle!! But today I had the news of a very dear friend disease, one of those that don't allow too many hopes for a good out coming... And them gypsies came to my mind for a different reason... Aren't we all in some way gypsies? Wondering from place to place, ambition to ambition, love to love, living on (God knows what) a kind of quest for happiness , to finish at a nobodies land...... Now I realize why the arouse my curiosity: WE ARE JUST LIKE THEM.... Only we rarely understand it!!!!!

This image means a lot to me for several reasons not needed to explain here but was in my mind to show it accompanying the previous post. Any how there it is now. Just beacause I find it beautiful.

That's life

Life is that... Gains and losses!!

Today I lost a lot of things... Material some, affectives (mostly) others.

Usually I would be a wreck...

It doen't mean I am happy with such events, but I am trying to accept the losses and find out what gains (if any) and can find in them!!

Yes everything has a good and bad side, we just have to look for the one that really suits us at a given time.

And I am determined to get the good of the situation.

Call me selfish...

And I will say that is a good thing to be in the right dose... Prevents us from suffering, and that's good!

GOSTOS III

I lOVE FLOWERS! ALL TYPES ,SPECIALLY WILD FLOWERS, THOSE WE KNOW THAT WOULD DIE EASILY IF WE PICK THEM UP... WHY? BECAUSE I FEEL THEY SHOULD BE LEFT WHERE EVERYBODY THAT PASSES BY CAN ENJOY THEIR BEAUTY... NATURE CREATED BEAUTY SHOULD BELONG TO EVERYBODY... ONE OF MY LAST TRAVELS PRESENTED ME WITH THE VIEW OF THIS LOVELY OLD COACH PLENTY OF ALL KIND OF FLOWERS AND THE VERY PROMESING NAME OF "QUINTA DO PARAÍSO" HAD NO TIME TO FIND THAT FARM BUT THE NAME STILL RINGS BELLS IN MY IMAGINATION... WHAT IF THE PARADISE IS REALLY THERE?......

GOSTOS II

I love cats.. They are independant but tender, fluffy and inteligent...spite of what most people say! But this particular one, apart the coulor not that common among felines is so very smart and has (never saw one like it before) different mews according what it wants to do (or wants us to do to him).. Even as a special one, different from all the others, when he wants to combed.... So I love cats.... GOSTOS

GOSTOS

I am no photographer, but I would like very much to be... Particularly the B&W like this one I took.... It is no good but I particularly like it just because was my first shot with a longtime dream I fullfilled... to buy myself a camera. Today after a year I look at it and see even more faults than I noticed when I downloaded it.... But I still look at it and like spite all the faults.....GOSTOS.....

Yesterday under the great pain of not having my father,on a special day full of nice, long gone memories (whom I miss a bit more each day) I wrote on this blog a very emotional tribute to him.... I deleted it because I felt it was too much exposure of my soul and my deepest feelings at such a public place! But here I leave a promise to HIM... Father, I am trying to climb my stairway the best I know! Like always I still count on you to help me on the way...

From the end of times

NO TITLES, NO COMMENTS. BEAUTIFUL BUT ALL THE SADNESS IN MY HEART!... IF NOTHING HAPPY COMES SOON I FEEL LIKE GIVING UP LIVING... JUST SEAT ON A CORNER AND HOPE THE END TO MY LONELY LIFE COMES SOON..........WHAT ELSE TO HOPE FOR... HOW I REGGRET SOME LOST CHANCES (IF NOT OF HAPINESS) AT LEAST OF SOME COMPANIONSHIP...

Sem comentários... Falta-me inspiração para mais, mas tinha que aqui vir dizer nada afinal!!!

I am like this small pond... Still watters dead leafs lots of stones (where I countless hurted myself )but still same green trying to appear among them, where in fact it shouldn't be allowed... Oh , this unseakable will of go on seeing (and living)the things... When will I learn to be happy just being (and nothing more)....

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I have no idea about what's hapenning to me... I just stop sleeping and remain wake till morning light just hopping for the sleep to hit me... till I give up and take a slipping pill. To tell the truth apart a heart atack (so mild that it is almost a joke call it that name) some events that don't affect my life neither can I contribute to solve them, keep me awake night after night... And I believe I was imune to what others do with their own lives! Nagh.... People metter too much to me even when I denny it... Or as some music says... HERE I GO AGAIN DOING THE SAME MISTAKES AGAIN ....

Why do people disappoint us so much? We love them and try to give our best to prove they are valuable to us and and suddenly the big kick off. Today I wish I was dead just to finish all my sadness and misfortune.... To know that no one really cares if I live or died if I am healthy or sick enhances the loneliness in my heart to unbherable points.

alone at last

After a while writing (no that much it's true) at another blog I decided to write just for me. To exercise my writing, to put my feelings and intimate ideas in printed letters. Nobody is going to read me I am quite sure, so I can open up my hear with no restrictions...

GOOD THAT'S A RELIEF...