THINGS I KNOW...

Craziness is not a must yet help to get bye the small problems with a light frame of mind! Try it... (if you dare the courage for...) And have all a nice Autumn day!

darkshadesofalife: THINGS I LEARNED

darkshadesofalife: THINGS I LEARNED

THINGS I LEARNED

It is hard to understand but who realises the truth the simple lines contain???? But that's the truth...Having loved my son so much that sometimes I felt my heart would burst out, nothing worked out well as I hoped for! I was in fact wrong...LOVE DOESN'T SOLVE ANYTHING, JUST HELPS THROUGH...

THINGS I LEARNED

I have had for sure that some things, like personal tastes, personality, even love never changed! As I grew older, I found myself thinking ,acting, liking disliking things so opposite to what I use to, that if it were another person I would not trust so many changes at same person... I am not sorry for that (it means that I am different that I used to be!). I learned a lot of things from friend, and family(even inlwas!)! Me I like myself most now... If changes were for better or worst only those who really me know me can find out... But here is another uncertainty... WHO REALLY KNOWS ME??? Not even myself! In fact WHO knows WHO?!

PEOPLE WHO REALLY KNOW ABOUT LIFE

THINGS I'M LEARNING

I was almost certain that, as we get older we learn lots of things, which have no actual use as the chances of applying this knowledge shorten as age increases... Pure illusion!! Life is also teaching me that, if we are open to new chances, they will appear in our path and there we can put to use our lifetime experience! I am usually mostly pessimist, but I try so hard to change that view! Now I almost believe that good things are coming my way... God willing!!

AUTUMN CHARMES

Trees leaves are now becoming to these beautiful shades of yellow reddish and falling down making a soft and fluffy carpet where I feel the desire of walking, dancing making them levitate around my feet... And during one of these silly walks I felt so fulfilled and happy that I even believed that I could become like them! In the end of live, still giving some comfort and joy to people we usually cross bye without a look...and also discovered that a smile, a good morning to someone I even don't know the name, can put a nice smile on a face that seemed too much closed, passing by...Takes so little effort and may be my words and smile made that person feel a bit better during the hard day ahead...Must do it more often for the others and also for myself!!

JUST AROUND THE CORNER......

Still remember the need, the anxiety around coming out of the sun, the summer, the vacations?? I do!! Beaches crowded, extensive lines of cars to and from the beaches nearby (or distant!).... But that perspective here on the left is just around the corner.... Is that speed of changes that makes us old or are we old just on account of IT? Note: All pictures posted on this blog belong to MLC and can't be used for any purpose without the author authorization!

WHY????........

If we are the choices we make why do we make so many bad choices??... Mere bad luck or just plain stupidity??....

MAGICAL EYES

The magic is in the eyes, just as the beauty is in the eyes of the beholder!.. So whenever I look at this tender look and sweet expression, how I envy that cat!If I could have his inquiry, tender look perhaps I would easily enter, soften and conquer the heart of someone I truly love and make him to feel the same!!... It should be very easy...Even cats can do it... I am less than a cat, much less indeed. What a misfortune.

My vacations just ended

My vaccations ended just as they started... More expections than true amusement! I learned at least one thing from my decision!! The best of vaccations for old people like me, who go by themselves, no one to talk to... is the planning ,the antecipation, the things that go wrong but should and could went right, though nothing really important! Just the famous Peter's Law!!

But I am back and spite all things I take a positive perpective and I am planing other trip very soon...

claustrophobia

When fields start colourizing by wilde flowers of various shades I start to feel the calling for open spaces. Never, like on this time of the year, I feel like a bird in a cage! Not having the chance of getting in a car and go on my own wherever whenever I want gives me a totall feeling a failure once more and repeats itself more vividely, intense not to say urgent as each summer goes on and away... I believe it's because I am laking time to do things, go places, each year, as I become older and loose, as did before my chances of a true freedom and selfassurance and indepedancy...

FINALLY A "BIG" DECISION

During a long period of my life my vacations were spent at faraway beaches, long white sand coasts and warm waters. And I returned invigorated. After retirement and some changes in life, that kind of vacations became past memories... But this year I took a decision and really I will try to have the courage to go on vacations to a beach alone, just by myself!! It´s the first time I decide to do that for health reasons but also to put myself to the test... I look forward the day of departure and a certain cloud shades my mind! How will I do by myself with no one to talk and change opinions... One thing I am sure of... I intend to take lots of sun and rest for all the years that I haven't done it. On return, may be I have some news to confide to my friendly blog that also keeps me company, and at least some photos to remeber the great achievment... LOOL AVISO Todas as fotos publicadas neste blog são minha propriedade e reservo-me o direito de não autorizar a sua cópia sem meu consentimento

RESILIENCE

During my last trip to my beloved Alentejo, I found this resilient daisy (no... is not a sunflower!!) . The day was windy and showers, came and go, leaving her wet and the petals twisted sometimes by the impact of the rain drops.... But as soon as the sun appeared briefly and the wind dryed her up a bit, there she was shining and bright, as if nothing could affect her!! ...And yet she was standing alone, not in a field of their alike, to give her stamina, but lonely outside a fence on the muddy road! And I couldn't resist to have her company, to bring her with me! And decided to share it with who ever may pass my blog! Isn't she pretty? And brave?

IS IT SUMMER'S FAULT??

Long hot, sleepless night! A friend of mine called in tears. Her boy friend has done it again!!! An ugly fight, for some trivial reason ,and bag in one hand goes out of the door, saying I am going on vacations by myself. Need some time away from you! She says that by this time of the year there is always something in the air announcing a storm forming around... They say the pillow is a good adviser, but no sleep, so no pillow... And thinking far back in my relationship I find out that the same happens here! Less dramatic (age counts even in matters of the heart!) but nevertheless as summer approaches and some details on day to day basis change... More stress ,more unrest more bad temper! What happens to men in summer??? And I remember that at my work colleagues use to have same complaint... I am trying to understand (I have a vague idea!) how problem appears... WHAT SUMMER GOT TO DO IT???

AND LIFE GOES ON

THAT'S TRUE... MY MOTHER USED TO SAY IN THE GOOD OLD PORTUGUESE WAY "NÃO HÁ MAL QUE SEMPRE DURE" MEANING NO HARDSHIPS CAN LAST FOREVER... AND SADDLY AS IT MAY SEEM , IT IS TRUE!! ONE OF THIS DAYS SEATTING AT A RESTAURANT BY THE SEASIDE SURROUNDED BY BOATS AND THIS BEUATIFUL SKY, BREATHING THE FRESH BREEZE AND ENJOYING THE PLEASURE OF A MARVELOUS GRILLED (TRULY FRESH) FISH AND IT LOOKED LIKE IF NO TROUBLES OR PROBLEMS COULD EVER UPSET MY PEACE OF MIND.... AND IT WAS A GREAT FEELING...SELFISH MAY BE BUT GREAT .....AS LIFE GOES BY...

WE ARE ALL GYPSIES

Sometimes I wonder how do gypsies live (and on what)...I had the opportunity of capture one of their camps, from faraway (they didn't allow me closer!) and my camera's lens was too short... At the moment, was just the fascination of the freedom I saw, children, horses, tents, adults and a wide land (nobodies land?)... Not even a good document of their lifestyle!! But today I had the news of a very dear friend disease, one of those that don't allow too many hopes for a good out coming... And them gypsies came to my mind for a different reason... Aren't we all in some way gypsies? Wondering from place to place, ambition to ambition, love to love, living on (God knows what) a kind of quest for happiness , to finish at a nobodies land...... Now I realize why the arouse my curiosity: WE ARE JUST LIKE THEM.... Only we rarely understand it!!!!!

This image means a lot to me for several reasons not needed to explain here but was in my mind to show it accompanying the previous post. Any how there it is now. Just beacause I find it beautiful.

That's life

Life is that... Gains and losses!!

Today I lost a lot of things... Material some, affectives (mostly) others.

Usually I would be a wreck...

It doen't mean I am happy with such events, but I am trying to accept the losses and find out what gains (if any) and can find in them!!

Yes everything has a good and bad side, we just have to look for the one that really suits us at a given time.

And I am determined to get the good of the situation.

Call me selfish...

And I will say that is a good thing to be in the right dose... Prevents us from suffering, and that's good!

GOSTOS III

I lOVE FLOWERS! ALL TYPES ,SPECIALLY WILD FLOWERS, THOSE WE KNOW THAT WOULD DIE EASILY IF WE PICK THEM UP... WHY? BECAUSE I FEEL THEY SHOULD BE LEFT WHERE EVERYBODY THAT PASSES BY CAN ENJOY THEIR BEAUTY... NATURE CREATED BEAUTY SHOULD BELONG TO EVERYBODY... ONE OF MY LAST TRAVELS PRESENTED ME WITH THE VIEW OF THIS LOVELY OLD COACH PLENTY OF ALL KIND OF FLOWERS AND THE VERY PROMESING NAME OF "QUINTA DO PARAÍSO" HAD NO TIME TO FIND THAT FARM BUT THE NAME STILL RINGS BELLS IN MY IMAGINATION... WHAT IF THE PARADISE IS REALLY THERE?......

GOSTOS II

I love cats.. They are independant but tender, fluffy and inteligent...spite of what most people say! But this particular one, apart the coulor not that common among felines is so very smart and has (never saw one like it before) different mews according what it wants to do (or wants us to do to him).. Even as a special one, different from all the others, when he wants to combed.... So I love cats.... GOSTOS

GOSTOS

I am no photographer, but I would like very much to be... Particularly the B&W like this one I took.... It is no good but I particularly like it just because was my first shot with a longtime dream I fullfilled... to buy myself a camera. Today after a year I look at it and see even more faults than I noticed when I downloaded it.... But I still look at it and like spite all the faults.....GOSTOS.....

Yesterday under the great pain of not having my father,on a special day full of nice, long gone memories (whom I miss a bit more each day) I wrote on this blog a very emotional tribute to him.... I deleted it because I felt it was too much exposure of my soul and my deepest feelings at such a public place! But here I leave a promise to HIM... Father, I am trying to climb my stairway the best I know! Like always I still count on you to help me on the way...

From the end of times

NO TITLES, NO COMMENTS. BEAUTIFUL BUT ALL THE SADNESS IN MY HEART!... IF NOTHING HAPPY COMES SOON I FEEL LIKE GIVING UP LIVING... JUST SEAT ON A CORNER AND HOPE THE END TO MY LONELY LIFE COMES SOON..........WHAT ELSE TO HOPE FOR... HOW I REGGRET SOME LOST CHANCES (IF NOT OF HAPINESS) AT LEAST OF SOME COMPANIONSHIP...

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